well, this is it! I’m completely done with sophomore year. Creepy of creepies, I’m a junior now! Wow I feel old. Anyway, to celebrate my summer freedom and getting beyond those hellish two weeks of pre-finals and finals, I am now hanging out at my sister’s house for the next week! The wonderful thing is that my sister Anna goes to work from 8-6, so I have most of the time to myself. I thoroughly enjoy it. And yes, I do kind of feel like I’m skipping out on all my friends at home, but seriously, if you had a chance to ditch your life for a week, would you take it? Well, for me being who I am, the answer to that is a resounding BOOYAH BABY COUNT ME IN!!!!! The perks? Swimming pool, alone time, house to myself, no accountability, No social awkwardness, No time table, no responsibility….. it is in essence the perfect vacation.

And what makes it more amazing is I have been reading “Desiring God” by John Piper. This has been an amazing book for me to read these past few days. I’m not going to lie, it hasn’t really told me anything new, it’s more like a organized collection of what God has been telling me in the past….. well, a while. It makes me think of one of my favorite songs of all time.
Cry For You ~Reilly

Every desire that we have is just a yearning for God.

I was talking to my mom about marriage the other day because I’ve been feeling a little bit off lately. Not because I have a major crush on somebody or I really want to be married or whatever…. more the opposite. I don’t want that, I don’t have the desire for a boyfriend or a partner or someone to chill with 24/7…. I just don’t have it, and everyone I tell that to just doesn’t get it. Like I’ve sprouted a third head or something.

Anywhos so me and my mom were talking about it. And my mom told me that marriage doesn’t fill an empty spot in your life. Marriage is just another friendship that God leads further. So God is still fulfilling all your desires, he’s just leading you in a new direction, and out of that contentment he births a marriage.

I rather like this way of looking at marriage. It’s not like you’re needy and MUST have a husband in order to live. You are still and independent person, it’s just that your independent person is tied to another independent person. and together you make a completely new independent person.

I know this is confusing, but it makes sense in my mind, and that’s what this blog is, right…. a look at my mind. needless to say, my mind has been very….. uniquely and privately mine in recent months. Thus the lack of any really in-depth long blog posts. For this I apologize, although the regaining of modesty and discretion in me is probably more of a good thing.

In essence, my lack of proliferous posts is due to me reverting back to my old self….

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2 Responses to vacation!

  1. Ah'Sandra says:

    I’m glad you’re having a good time at Anna’s!
    I totally know what you mean about the “like I’ve sprouted a third head or something” – it doesn’t get any better, as you get older. In fact, it gets worse. (=
    I’m the same way, I don’t want to get married, I have no desire for that right now, and people think I’m crazy and throwing a pity party. Which isn’t the case.

    Happy Jesus time!! (and good for you for realizing you were reverting and turning around!)

  2. bekahcubed says:

    Actually, Grace… you kind of are sprouting a third head. I mean, I didn’t really want to tell you, because it’s really awkward…but I think it’s best that you know.

    And I agree–modesty and discretion is a good thing, even if it means I have less to read. Go ahead and keep on pondering what you need to ponder in your heart.

    And don’t forget to MARK UP that book!

    I look forward to seeing you again before the wedding.

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