So I read through Mark today and I stumbled across something extremely profound.
This one dude is like “Hey, you’re disciples can’t heal my son.”
And Jesus is like “Bring him to me.” so the dude brings him…. and Jesus is like “You need to believe more.”
And the dude is like “I do believe, help me overcome my unbelief.”
And then the dude’s son is healed.
And later the disciple dudes are like “Why couldn’t we drive that demon out?”
And Jesus dude was like “Because that kind can only be driven out by prayer.”
I have come to the conclusion that when you have conflicting feelings inside like this man and you want to see the miracles of God, you need to pray. I am under the impression that the demon in the boy was not the only one cast out that day. The demon of unbelief was cast out of the dude when he cried out to Jesus saying “Help me overcome my disbelief”.
So that’s what I have to do. I’m conflicted inside about who I am and who Jesus wants me to be, I need to pray not that I would be a completely different person, but that my distrust and disbelief of God would be overcome.