Why am I not surprised? The fears betrayed in the former post were in fact proven correct. I will admit, the night was put together well, but that was the only thing that actually worked… I came away from the night feeling like I’d just wasted an hour and a half of my life. I feel like I’m in the wrong position in the whole grand scheme of things. I’m a teacher. I like to be the one teaching things, not the one learning things… and when the teachers aren’t even half as equipped as I am, It makes this reality even more excrutiating.
Anyway. My summer is now in full swing. I got paid for babysitting today! yay! now I get to set it aside and save it. detasseling should start soon….
Amazingly, I don’t have that much to say. My life is mediocre at best right now… I don’t have any PRAISE GOD moments to share(at least that are my own to share)…. I don’t have any Rants…. I don’t have any stark realities…
Okay, well, that’s not true… but I’ve already tol ya’ll that I’m not what anyone expects, and it pisses me off when they expect me to be something that I’m not…. that’s no different.
have I ever told you how big of a fool I am? I seem to always get it wrong. I never do the right thing… I never do the wrong thing either, I just do the thing. I never use wisdom, I just act rashly… and I’m always spewing these bitternesses and discontentedness… I’m not happy. I’m not content… I’m constantly making mediocre choices. like a fenc-sitter…. a mullet-wearer… I’m kinda sick of it.
ah, there we go. Finally, something exciting to blog about.
The moral of this story is…. I have nothing to share…. almost
together in boredom(for why else would you be reading my blog?)