Graduation!!!!

I graduate in one week. WOOHOOOO!!!!! I have to go to school two more times and then I’m done!!! For GOOOOOD!!!!

Then I’m moving to a different part of this here fair state. I’m going to be living with my dearest sisters Anna and Rebekah(of Bekahcubed.menterz.com)

It’s going to be so exciting.

I can’t wait…

I’m doing orientation at my job on Monday.

Speaking of which. I need to do laundry and get everything together for that. EEEKKK!!!

As you can see there’s a lot on my plate right now. Graduation, moving, starting a new job…

Also my radiator in my new car broke… so there’s that to worry about…

I’m pretty stressed out. Tomorrow me and my fellow senior, John, are doing the whole church service… for graduation sunday. Typically on these days Pastor Jason gives us a sappy sermon on change and keeping God the center…. We’re going to teach them about overcoming instead…

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The Rest of the Story

So in case you didn’t notice, I ended my last post rather abruptly and I”m not quite sure if I’ve ever actually shared that story on here, so I’m going to write it out. For posterity’s sake and all…

So my friends convinced me to try out for show choir. well that wasn’t the first hoop to jump through. I had to ask my parents first. So I asked my parents and they had a bunch of questions… “How mucyh does it cost? What’s the time committment? Is the dress modest? Can you even sing?” jk on that last one… but seriously. It was agonizing. And I dind’t have an answer for most of these questions. But after what seems like forever my parents agreed I could try out…

Then came the actually trying out part… My school was being renovated at the time, so the singers room was closed…. All choir classes were moved to….

The wrestling room…

So guess where I had my audition? You guessed it. The intimidating, freezing cold, wrestling room. I was so nervous. I accompanied myself to Nicole Nordeman’s song “Gratitude”. I was later to find out that Mrs. Smitty is a staunch Catholic and she really appreciated my song choice.

I made it in without doing a dancing audition(they were really desperate.)

I had a month to learn choreography and notes for two songs without being in the class…. It was hectic. But I made it. And that year we won 1st at our last competition WOoot Woooot!

At the time I was also in Jazz band as a pianist. I was thinking that I would be more of a piano player and singing would be my second love. Turns out I have more of an aptitude for singing. The more I played piano and watched other people play piano the more I realized that I have a talent for music, but not piano in particular. My excellence in piano is purely brute force and quick learning. I don’t have a talent for it, contrary to popular belief. I just try really really hard.

So at the end of my sophomore year I opted out of jazz band and made a commitment to another year of show choir. Turns out that was another of my smarter decisions…

But I wasn’t too smart. I also opted out of the varsity classical choir.

The summer before my junior year I was nominated for a European choir tour for summer 2011, which I accepted. Throughout Junior year I ended up having a magnificent experience in show choir and I started to regret not opting for singers.

So I put my name down to audition for my senior year. Even the best laid plans go awry. I got laryngitis a few weeks before my singers audition. I kept pushing back my audition. Finally we just had it, even though my voice hadn’t fully recovered. Smitty’s justification? “I know how well you sing, It’ll be fine.”

Well turns out she didn’t know just how well I could sing, because she was visibly surprised by my audition. See up until that point I had been singing low alto, the range where I am the most comfortable. For my Singers audition I sang Be Thou My Vision which, for the irreligious and ignorant, is a hymn through and through…. Meaning wide range requiring an extraoridnary amount of breath support and generally requires either a high chest voice, a low head voice, or a great deal of overlap. At the time… well… I don’t know how I did it well, but she was surprised.

I made it into the varsity choir while recovering from laryngitis.

I made it into show choir with no prior singing experience…

Last summer I went on the European tour and I did a lot of intense singing. We sang for mass in chathedrals across western Europe. I started to lose my low range. I started to get a high range. A really high range…

When I went back to school in the fall of 2011 I switched to a first soprano in Singers and a second soprano in show choir. I landed a low alto solo in show choir. For expressions this year I am singing a duet that is firmly in the soprano range…. not mezzo-soprano…. soprano…

Somewhere in the mix I started leading wednesday night worship at youth group. That evolved into leading sunday mornings with the church team. I don’t do that anymore, but I still lead big church with my trusty sidekick, John Brunkles.

When I grow up I want to be a permanent part of a worship team. I want to sing. not necissarily play the piano. I can live without that. But I want to sing. I need to sing.

Last night after we had our dress rehearsal Smitty paid me the highest compliment I could have ever gotten from her. And I’m not going to share it here cuz that would be too boastful. But it got me to thinking how I went from the terrified little sophomore in the wrestling room who “Needs a little work” to the singer my choir director thinks I am.

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Scatterbrained- What if…

I’ve had a couple really good blog ideas come up for the past week…

I’m not blogging on them right now.

You want to know why?

I’ve forgotten them.

This is what happens to Gracie Joy when she gets busy. She forgets brilliant things.

This could have been an awesome post. But it’s not because of Expressions(the single best thing about the school I go to)

Oh hey I just remembered my blog post..

Three and a half years ago I was warbling off a note in my kitchen while making my friends nachos… As I opened the fridge door my friend Holly says “Hey that sounded pretty good, you should join show choir. We really need people”

And at that moment my life changed.

Good night.

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Not What They Seem

The older I get the more I realize that people are almost never as they seem. Me and Joannaaaaa were out strutting downtown a few days ago and it was really hot out. So we wore as little clothes as possible. Me in my miniskirt, Jo in her strapless shirt… We were trollin in the hipster area so it wasn’t so bad. But we got to talking about how we didn’t exactly look like christians at the moment… So I got to thinking about myself and about what defines me and about all the people I’ve meet in my day that looked like they would be good people but the were terrible people and all the people who looked terrible but ended up being awesome.

Story of my life bro.

Maybe the standard is all messed up. Maybe the genuine people are the ones with their ugly side hanging out. Who wants to be around a prick who won’t admit they’re flawed anyway. yep… the random musings of the teenaged mind….

I didn’t go to prom on Saturday. Yep…. I don’t regret it. next time I wear a fluffy dress will be at a wedding… Maybe my own. Who knows.

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Sore, Sore, Sore

Not of the loser variety…. Of the Dancer variety.

In a week and a half(eek!) The varsity choirs of my school are putting on an entirely student-run production involving singing and dancing and solos(oh my!) Yesterday we had our first huge marathon rehearsal and can I just say…

My hips are killing me!

So much dancing! So much singing! So much prancing around! I don’t know if I can bear it! Lol whatevs yo, It’s going to be sooooo much fun! I have a duet.

I’ve always wanted to sing Come What May from Moulin Rouge…. Now I get to. In front of hundreds of people.

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E-Breakdown

What, you may ask, does the E stand for? Expressions? Emotional? Eastern? etc? (Ahahahaha etc. starts with an e)

nope. All wrong(except for maybe emotional) ELECTRONIC! Darned phone!

Yep. I was leaving the home of one of my bible study girls when my phone slipped off my bible and fell down some concrete steps. I pick it up “Thank God the screen isn’t cracked.” I get down the road and (At the stoplight, mind you) I realize my screen is intact, but completely unresponsive. Brilliant. Just what I need after I’ve just spent money I don’t have on a car…. Greeeeeeeaaat.

And now that I’m at home and planning things out I’m realizing that I probably won’t actually have to spend money on a replacement phone(thank god) but this thought has hit me….

What if my car breaks down on the way home from school tomorrow and I can’t call anyone and I get stranded? What if one of my friends has an emotional breakdown and tries to call me but I can’t answer because my phone is busted? What if college calls me and tells me that my picture that I submitted today for my id doesn’t fit the standards and I need a new photo? What if one of my girls has a big question to ask? I HAVE TO USE A REAL ALARM CLOCK IN THE MORNING!!!!

Can I just stay home like a hermit until I have a phone that works?

Oh, those what-ifs can kill you… But I can’t help but feel helpless when I’m suddenly disconnected from instant communication… The Horror!!! Anyways. I’ll probably have a phone that works before tomorrow afternoon…

But I still have to set a real alarm…. like one that’s actually on a clock…. how archaic…

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I’m Still Smart!!!

Today I took the Math Placement Exam for college. It was kinda stressful because….

PING! I haven’t taken a math class since Junior year…. I am nearing the end of my Senior year…. Yeah kind of not a good thing.

But turns out I did really well on the placement test and was placed into Math 106…. which apparently that’s right where I left off in high school(last year…. oops) Hooray!

Proof that Jesus loves me. Half the time on that test I was like “Whaaaaaa” shhhh don’t tell. Jk. I’ll own up to being slightly unsure of myself on that test. The point is that even though I was unsure, I got the right answers in the end. Winning!

Just wanted to share my joy at finding out that after a year of a near sedentary lifestyle my brain still works. That’s always a good thing…

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Blue Like Jazz- Why I Stopped

As you can guess by the title, I stopped reading Blue Like Jazz…

The reason? (sorry for being so redundant on this here blog) I believe that Jesus is the answer to all of the world’s problems…

The author of Blue Like Jazz doesn’t necessarily believe that. He’s more of a political activist…. he buys into the separation of church and state thing. I don’t know if he intended to come across that way, but that’s what I got from it. I stopped reading because I’m tired of people trying to solve God sized problems with a band-aid. If my judgement of whatsisface is wrong, I’m sorry. That’s what I got from it though…

I’m buying a car this afternoon. pictures will be uploaded(something new for my blog! I’ve never posted a picture before!)

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Les Nouvelles

You know how everyone talks about their favorite lunch lady? I have a favorite lunch man. No favorite lunch lady… the man is better…. Before i graduate I’m going to give him a high five or a handshake or something. He’s the only cafeteria worker in the whole school who actually takes his job seriously and gets us our food in a timely fashion…. You want proof that socialism doesn’t work? Go to a public school cafeteria.

I’m moving away for the summer because I’m going to work at a nursing home in a different city. I’m going to live with my sisters. It’s going to be super fun…

As a result I have to buy a car. Once my dad gets home from taking the trash to the dump that’s what I’m going to go do…. Look at cars that is…. perhaps buy one…

When I go to my school friends’ houses it makes me feel really poor. They have really big houses with three levels… and they’re a family of one parent and two children…. Sometimes I want to smack people and tell them that I grew up in a house half that size with my family(which is three times bigger). I shared a room with my TWO sisters… I didn’t get my own bed until I was 13…. I feel so poor…

But on a brighter note, my parents are not divorced and my six siblings are my best friends. I dare any of my classmates to say they’re more blessed.

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Motherhood

UGH a good thing to say!!!! Should I tweet it? Shout I facebook it? Should I pinterest it(pfffft lol)????

(I only have 15 minutes and I need to get this out. Bear with me.)

SO lately a lot of people have been hating on Ann Romney because she was a stay at home mom. They’re all saying “She’s never worked a day in her life” to go along with the idea that the Romneys are a bunch opf rich people who don’t know anything about how the real world works. Well I’m kind of sick of it. All these people saying that she’s less of a mom than a single mom who works. Whatever.

My point in bringing this up?

Money doesn’t make motherhood any easier or harder. It might mean you have more time to give to your kids, but you still have to train your kids up and instill values into them. Whether you have 24 hours to do that or 1, it doesn’t really matter. It’s hard and messy and complicated and at the end of the day you can only pray that your kids are understanding what you’re teaching. I’m a kid, I know. There were a lot of things I wish I had learned from my parents that I didn’t learn.

My mom was a stay at home mom and my dad worked every day from before I got up in the morning till supper time. I don’t really remember even one of my birthdays where my dad was there because he was too busy bringing home the bacon. My mom raised seven of us kids. Money might have been a bit tight at times, but we were fed, clothed, and happy. I had no idea that I grew up in a family where money was tight until LAST YEAR. I’m 18 years old, people. Money doesn’t make a difference in how good or bad a mom is. My mom is awesome because she taught me how to be a good person. Money can’t buy morals. Money can’t buy anything that actually means anything.

So I really wish people would stop hating on Ann Romney. I really do. It really frustrates me. Cuz Ann Romney for all I know is the mirror image of my mom. Not. Cool.

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