Despite seeing a bunch of “thirty days of thankfulness” stuff on facebook I haven’t really been feeling it this Thanksgiving. Maybe it’s because I’m a rebel and when everyone else is doing stuff it makes me not want to do it too… Maybe it’s because my head is spinning a million miles an hour and I can’t think past how thankful I ma that it hasn’t flown off yet…
Well… I”ll take a moment here and try to sort out what I’m thankful for…
I’m thankful for…
Technically not new, my sister bribed me with a shopping spree in her shoe closet if I helped her drive her new car home. But I failed a test today and I was feeling kind of down so I put on a new pair of heels. Made me feel better right away. And for that I’m thankful.
My God who has a plan
… yeah. I kind of broke down in my drive home from school today and just sobbed. Not that I’m having a hard time trusting God or anything, I’m just under a lot of stress. It’s all very uncertain. It’s scary. I’m trusting God’s plan and I”m resting in His plan… I’ve just been broken down.
I’ve spent a lot of time with people who are genuinely seeking the face of God. It’s good for little old me.
That life goes on
and once the test is over, it’s over. I don’t have to worry about it. There’s nothing I can do about the probably 60% I got on that calc test I was procrastinating studying for last night.