At the moment I am procrastinating studying for a huge calc exam(that’s in the morning!!!) by watching youtube, facebooking, and applying for jobs for next semester.
Full time jobs…
Yup.
I’m dropping out of college…
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Just kidding! I’m taking a semester off because, despite my “pounding the pavement” as my father keeps telling me to do, I wasn’t able to get a job right away when I came home for school. Then having unforeseen fees with college and a nasty habit of spending more than I aught… Well lets just say I can’t afford next semester without going into debt, which is the one thing I swore I wouldn’t do. I’m anticipating going back on that swear my junior or senior year…. not second semester of freshman year… so I’m going to take a semester off and fund raise.
I’ve really been struggling with this for a few months now of whether or not I should take a semester off. Then it knocked me in the head. “Grace, you’re broke. You have no choice but to take a semester off.”
So here I am blogging about it.
It’s blog official.
Now if only I could line up a full time job for next semester I’d be the happiest girl south of the north pole.
I have so many things stressing me out right now. Finding a job, finals, tests, papers, switching churches, car payments, phone payments, Christmas shopping, time ticking at work, eating healthy, sleeping right, getting up in the morning, not being late to class, having a social life…
Have I mentioned that I’m clinging to Romans 5:3-5? Well I am. I know that this sucks, but I can rejoice because I know that in the long run I am not going to be disappointed because of the hope I have in Christ’s love.
As my Calvinist friend Nelly and I keep repeating to each other over and over again through some of the most stressful times: God is sovereign.
He has me in the palm of his hand. He knows the number of hairs on my head, He knows my most anxious thoughts, He knows my deepest desires. And. He. Cares.
Matthew 6:26 talks about the birds and how they don’t worry about their lives and yet God provides for them in wonderful ways. Am I not more precious than a bird in the sky? How much more will God provide for me?
Closing statement: Nelly is perhaps God’s greatest earthly gift to me. Our relationship would never have happened without God and it still amazes me today how she has kept me focused.
This has been a belated look into this here teen girl’s mind.
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Yowsers! Way to stick to the commitment to be debt-free. I’m excited to see what this will look like for you. I know God has good plans for you–and that He’ll be faithful to complete the work He started in you. Let me know if I can do anything to help you with the process! (And don’t stress TOO much about end-of-semester stuff :-P)