They don’t make you feel good. They make you feel worse.
All day I’ve been fighting self-pity. Fighting it. When usually I would give in and whine and get angry. But today I attempted(and semi-failed) to not give in.
I’m an idiot. I have terrible study habits. I’m still getting used to this whole college thing where you actually have to study for tests.
I came home from my evening class and test singing “Jesus loves me this I know, for my Psych test score tells me so”
I got a 92% and I crammed yesterday and procrastinated cramming more today. I took the test literally an hour before the test closed. I guessed on half the questions(An educated guess, of course). I did employ good test taking skills and I took the time to look over my answers a second time, but the fact remains that I don’t deserve the grade I got.
Looks like Grace has learned a lesson. Well, blog-buddies. All my friends are getting engaged and I am waiting. And I’m anticipating some tearing down on God’s part which will prolong my waiting.
But God is sovereign and this was always a part of His plan. I need to chill out and not get angry and huffy and have a pity-party. If I stop to think for more than two seconds I wouldn’t have it any other way. Quit yo whining, foo! You ain’t no Israelite in the desert!
Yay for staying in the fight against self-pity. It’s hard to remember when you’re in the midst of tough times, but God really is working His sovereign plan out in your life.
Waiting is hard-but take the opportunity to fall deeply and desperately in love with Christ, take the opportunity to enthrone Him on your heart and to be entranced by His greatness. Even if it takes 40 years (or more) of waiting, you’ll never regret the waiting so long as it’s waiting in the Lord. Otherwise, you’re just wandering in the wilderness of complaint (which, trust me, is a sucky place to be.) And once Christ is your supreme treasure, everything else (whether bad grades or good, single or “in a relationship”) is just icing on the cake!