The second thing was the list of pros and cons that I made. The main thing that I don’t have at my current church is relationships that encourage and challenge me. I don’t have the kind of relationships where I can tell someone about my struggles and they hold me accountable. I don’t have someone to go to when I have a question about something I read in my bible and I’m confused. I just don’t have the Paul-Timothy relationship that I want and I believe is biblical. Also I think as a result of that lack of fellowship it’s been really easy for me to backslide.

And thirdly there’s the simple fact that I am the only college student at my church with the exception of my brother Tim and his roommate. So when I am overcome with hunger for the word of God there isn’t really a venue to be fed at church. All of the stuff geared towards young people is geared towards middle school and younger, and all the stuff for adults is geared towards people with children and older.

My conclusion after looking at all of this was that it is best for my spiritual health that I find someplace where I can have mutually edifying relationships and be fed because the point of the church, at it’s core, is to fellowship and build each other up. You can praise God on your own, you can bible study on your own, you can pray on your own, you can evangelize on your own, but you can’t fellowship by yourself. And if I don’t have fellowship where there’s supposed to be fellowship then isn’t that a waste of time? it all comes down to what is really important.